Beyonce and George Michael - If I Were a Boy - Live at the O2 Arena - Tuesday 9th June 2009 HQ HD

I don't want to wake up in the morning to hear the news that George Michael has died. I just don't. He still has That Voice. The YouTube video (above) was from a concert in London only six months ago, when he joined Beyonce onstage at the O2 Arena to sing "If I Were a Boy".

I've seen George three times in concert, the last time being in July of 2008. Bloody FANTASTIC. Sure, he was chubby and couldn't quite hit the high notes as well, but it was an amazing show. His touching cover of The Police's Roxanne with stills from the Amsterdam Red Light District was phenomenal. Really.

George spoke to The Guardian in the U.K. this weekend, revealing all kinds of personal crap.: (It's a little long, but a good read. Go on. Read it.)

"The former Wham! star confirmed he was caught in possession of crack cocaine when arrested last year in public toilets on Hampstead Heath, a gay cruising area close to his home in north London.

But asked when he had last smoked the class A drug, the singer declined to answer.

He told The Guardian newspaper he had cut back on cannabis and now smokes only 'seven or eight' spliffs per day instead of the 25 he used to smoke.

The 46-year-old defended 'cottaging' on the Heath, saying it was 'nicer' than picking up men in bars.

'The handful of times a year it's bloody warm enough, I'll do it. I'll do it on a nice summer evening. Quite often there are campfires up there,' he said.

'It's a much nicer place to get some quick and honest (hopefully, SAFE?!) sex than standing in a bar, E'd off your tits (high on ecstasy) shouting at somebody and hoping they want the same thing as you do in bed.'

Asked why he cruises for sex when he could get any gay man he wanted, George replied: 'I do get anyone I want. But I like a bit of everything. I have friends up there, I have a laugh.'

You just might bump (?) into

George on your daily walk..

"...Come home. Kenny will be here, the dogs are here. Maybe eat locally, hang out, and then probably go off and have a s**g or have someone come here and have a s**g."

Asked if he was referring to his partner Kenny Goss, the singer replied: 'If it was s******g with Kenny, I wouldn't have to invite him round, would I?'

He continued: 'Kenny gets his, believe me.'

Recently a number of stars have said they fear for Michael's wellbeing, including Sir Elton John who enlisted the help of Bono.

He added: 'Geri [Halliwell] told Kenny that Bono, having spoken to Elton, had approached Geri to say, "What can we do for George?"

'This is what I have to deal with because I don't want to be part of that social clique. All I'd have to do to stop it is hang out in London, so people realise I don't look close to death.' (Yet?)

He continued: 'Elton lives on that. He will not be happy until I bang on his door in the middle of the night saying, 'Please, please, help me, Elton. Take me to rehab.' It's not going to happen.

'Elton just needs to shut his mouth and get on with his own life. Look, if people choose to believe that I'm sitting here in my ivory tower, Howard Hughesing myself with long fingernails and loads of drugs, then I can't do anything about that, can I?' (Oh dear.)

He added: 'People want to see me as tragic with all the cottaging and drug-taking... those things are not what most people aspire to, and I think it removes people's envy to see your weaknesses.

'I don't even see them as weaknesses any more. It's just who I am.'

George? Don't leave us too soon. And I hope to God you're getting tested. And tested again.